Recently I went through a season where I stopped working out regularly. I had moments of more activity, but working out consistently was not something I was doing. At first I felt guilty, and I even felt a little bit of fear that maybe I would slip into old habits. Or maybe I wasn’t making it a priority; the enemy sure had a field day with me on that.
You see I stopped working out every single day because I realized I wasn’t in the Word every single day. Working out every day did not take away the struggle that went on inside my heart and mind. I didn’t want sin management to be my way of life; I wanted freedom from everything that was keeping me at that place where I felt a void and emptiness.
The mirror will only reflect back to you what the heart feels.
Working out and eating right never changed how I felt about myself. I still struggled with so much insecurity and feeling unworthy, that really the struggle surely trumped any success I had with diet and exercise.
If we truly believe God’s word about how He made us, and that everything is for something, then we need to be at a place where we can accept ourselves right where we are.
I really don’t like talking about my struggles, but what are they there for if I don’t talk about them and share my journey with others? Have I got it all figured out? Absolutely not, but I do know that diet and exercise is NOT more important than an intimate relationship with the Jesus.
I had always wished that my body looked the way I felt inside. I guess I had thought I had it all together inside, but my thoughts obviously revealed a truth that I just didn’t notice. I guess I didn’t realize that God wanted more for me than just simply managing my sin, He actually wants me to BE FREE to BE ME!
I think our outer appearance reflects a lot about what we feel inside.
Not just our weight, but also how we dress, and the way we carry ourselves. A lot of us hide behind our clothes, style, or our hair (especially women.) God wants us to be free, but what does that look like?
I think freedom is something that is felt and expressed, rather than something that is seen. We often look at people’s outer appearance in order to determine if they are “free.” But really we can only measure freedom by what people are willing to reveal.
Sin brings guilt, shame, and condemnation. I wonder if we even realize that when we confess our sin that we are truly taking a step towards freedom simply because we are no longer hiding our shame.
It’s a journey for sure, and it’s not an easy one. But even sharing our heart with only God by taking our sin out of our mind and journal it on paper will help to free us from that sin. Isn’t it funny, sometimes we don’t write it down in a journal because we are so ashamed? But God already KNOWS, however we don’t know what freedom awaits us when we embrace His forgiveness through confession. Even if you just write it down in your journal, it counts!
What is God asking you to reveal to Him today?