I honestly just keep wanting to settle down, make myself comfy, and just enjoy life. But with every twist and turn of life I am more and more unsettled. Everything I thought ministry looked like isn’t what ministry is at all.
If you have been chasing down a promise from God, and you feel a bit distraught that it doesn’t look anything like you had hoped or imagined, then please know that you are not alone.
I have been reading about Abraham’s story of chasing down God’s promise. He truly was a man of faith, but the more I read his story, the more I realize that there wasn’t much vision casting going on. Nor was there much in the way of a promise as to what Abraham’s new life was going to look like, except that he would be the father of many nations and God was going to give Abraham’s descendents this new land.
Abraham was responsible for planting a new seed in a foreign land. Did you know that Abraham even went to war? He faced conflict and everything! I fear as Christians we glamorize Christianity.
“Just have faith and God will do great things in your life.” But lest we skip over the parts of Abraham’s story where he actually had to walk to where God was calling him to, and honestly Abraham didn’t have it all that easy. He obeyed but still struggled with fear, anxiety, and I’m pretty sure his insides were in knots on the way up the mountain to sacrifice his son Isaac, even if it was out of obedience.
Numerous times throughout the story of Abraham, he talks about being a foreigner in the land. Can you imagine uprooting your entire family to go somewhere you’ve never been before without really knowing why? Abraham went simply because God said GO!
Our family is kind of in that moment right now. After 11 years in the fire service my husband had an opportunity presented to him where he could start working at a different fire station. This fire station is currently 45 minutes away from our house. Needless to say our family is now in the process of basically starting from scratch when it comes to my husband’s job, our church, and getting established in a new neighborhood.
We plan on completely uprooting our family, and moving farther away from extended family, simply because we are wanting to be obedient to God.
For so long I was discouraged because there was lack of vision in my life. Often God would speak to me during my prayer time and also in my dreams, so I would wait expectantly for these things to come true.
The vision that we’ve been given has directed us to where we are right now. However sometimes the directing voice appears only a few days, or even the same day, we need to make our move.
Vision isn’t necessarily a big huge thing for the future, sometimes we need to ask God what our vision is for today.
Abraham had a vision, but he had no idea how that vision would be fulfilled, and he did get discouraged, as I am sure most of us do, too. Especially when things don’t seem to be lining up with the vision God has whispered to our heart.
Vision isn’t all that complicated, I think we just make it bigger than it needs to be.
Mission statements are great and they offer direction, but each step towards that mission or that goal is made with one step at a time. Those steps are taken on a daily basis, not on a grander scale.
I’ll have to admit, right now, it seems like a bit too much. I am a little scared, wondering what God has next.
However I feel God is removing the yoke and making my burden light so that I am free to do everything HE has called me to do.
My ministry hasn’t turned out like anything I ever expected it to be, but it has turned into so much more. I have learned that everything big in my life has come out of one small step of obedience towards the vision God has placed in my heart.
I am realizing now that maybe my heart has been focused on the wrong vision, or maybe I just need to take God out of the box that I have put Him in. Either way all of that will take some faith.
Trust me, you do not want to live under the yoke of fear. One where you are worried about making one misstep and where you feel you need to perform in order to advance in the Kingdom. There is truly no faith in that.
In my life, God is gently removing the security blankets I have placed over myself and my ministry.
I know what is in my heart, it is so much bigger than I can accomplish on my own. God knows that if I constantly hide behind the things that make me feel safe then I will never have the courage to take a risk in ministry, and in life.
It’s been a journey for sure, and it’s reassuring to see that even though Abraham was faithful, he wasn’t perfect. He obviously just needed to be faithful with what was already in front of him, and he had to be willing to take a risk and step out in faith. That’s what I am going to do, too.
Another thing to mention about Abraham, while he was waiting for His promise from God he dug wells everywhere that he went. This can be found in Genesis 26:18. Just by this one scripture we can see what Abraham did with his time spent waiting on the promise, he dug wells in the valleys.
Maybe that’s what we should do.
While we are waiting on the promise, let’s dig wells that are filled with the life-giving water of Jesus. Wells that our decedents can come back to for some encouragement. We can leave our mark as we wait on our promise, just like Abraham did.
Our promise will always be: