I have seen that every labor and every skill which is done is the result of rivalry between a man and his neighbor. This too is vanity and striving after wind. The fool folds his hands and consumes his own flesh. One hand full of rest is better than two fists full of labor and striving after wind. Ecclesiastes 4:4-6
Definition of Vanity: Excessive pride in or admiration of one’s own appearance or achievements.
In the writer’s world comparison is huge! It can truly consume you if you do not get a grip on it quickly. It is certainly something I have personally struggled with on more than one occasion.
Once you begin to compare yourself with someone else you get this feeling of not being good enough. Maybe you even get a little bitter towards God because the other person has something you don’t have, or maybe they achieved more success than you did and quicker than you.
Living in a life of comparing yourself to someone else brings us to a life where we easily give up or we are afraid to move forward. What if we really aren’t good enough…what then?
Well the truth is when we compare our self to others we are really facing a moment of pride within our heart. We want to be good and we want people to say great things about us too. If we move forward and we really aren’t “good enough” then we may end up looking like a fool, and then what? Our pride will be bruised and we will be broken.
None of us like to be broken and we certainly do not want the whole world to see our brokenness. Often our pride tells us to hide our flaws under a rug when God says bring them into the light.
Comparing our self to each other really brings us further away from what God can do in our life and where He can take us. We aren’t like everyone else, and God’s plan for us is completely unique. We may be on a similar path, but our stories will always be different.
Today I am learning to embrace the life God has planned for me. Yes, I have moments where I wish, and I compare. But then I take a moment to step back and look where God has me right now. Right now I am a homeschooling mom of three who writes in her “spare” time. Would I love to speak and go on fancy business trips? Sure, that is what my flesh desires! But my heart desires God’s will for my life and right now it is His call for me to be right here.
I believe with all my heart in the message God has given to me and I plan to put the message out there for all to read. I trust that God can bring the people to whatever it is I place out there. If I don’t trust God in this process and rely fully on Him, I get overwhelmed and I begin to compare. When I am overwhelmed and I compare I being to wallow in my own pride. That is not where God wants me to be, and that’s not where I want to be.
Today I will embrace this beautiful path God has me on because it’s MY path, and it’s MY story. In the end I will be with HIM and hopefully I will be able to share all the beauty of MY story with HIM. Until then I will delight in Him and wake up everyday with hopeful anticipation of what God has in store for MY life…