I had a blog post written and prepared for today, but several events have taken place since then. As with most of my fellow Christians, I am hurt and saddened by the beheading of 21 Egyptian Christians. My heart and prayers go out to their families.
It’s difficult to put into words my thoughts and feelings right now. They go from peace to anger, all in one swoop, from minute to minute. Life is so unpredictable, and these horrible terrorists acts are truly unspeakable.
I wonder if the terrorists are targeting Christians because they feel it will get them the reaction they want. I feel like they are truly antagonizing us, taunting us so to speak.
Isn’t that what the enemy does, makes us wonder, and live in fear. And it paralyzes us to the point where we can’t even function and we wonder what to do with our grief, anger, and terror. We are afraid of death.
I’ve read the Bible, and this world and life as a Christian isn’t supposed to get better for me, or for my children. So I am left with the question as to what am I supposed to be doing with my time.
I often feel like the rich young ruler who is spending so much time accumulating things that define me, instead of investing in the eternal things that will last forever.
But even in that we can get so lost in how we can become a more sacrificial Christian – and again use that as badge of honor that helps to make us even more important – that we forget that to live is Christ and to die is gain.
To live is Christ, and to die is gain.
Who has the victory? Well, if we are afraid to die, and if we let that fear stop us from even stepping foot on the battle field, where we live and breath a life of faith, hope, and love, then the enemy has the victory.
I need for my children to know this, there is no fear in heaven.
I need for my children to know that my faith will stand firm. Even if everyone around me is denying Christ with their words and their actions, then I will still stand firm. It’s not an easy thing to do, and yes, it is lonely sometimes. But I would hope that my children will do the same, too.
It’s tricky picking how you spend your time, your life. Life is a gift, as much as we might say that life stinks, we surely do treat it like it’s the most precious gift we will ever receive. We protect it, guard it, and plot out what we will do with our time here on earth.
Nobody wants to let life go. But every once in a while we are truly faced with the simple fact that we will all need to make an exit from this earthly body at some point in time. I feel for people who have never experienced loss because I feel they have yet to know that life is truly temporary.
When we lose we realize just how BIG our God is. The lower we go, and the more humbled we are, the more we start ticking away at the little things that truly don’t matter in the light of eternity.
But we notice they aren’t really small things, but the big things seem to fall to the side in order to make room for the small things.
Just yesterday in my prayer journal I wrote God’s will for my life, and it is:
1. My marriage.
2. My children.
3. My writing.
Three small things, and yet they seem so big. Intertwined in all of that is the great commission: making disciples, casting out evil spirits, and brining healing every where I step foot.I don’t need to search for God’s will for my life, because I am already living IT!
SO when the news is hard to hear, and you have difficult questions to ask, just remember God might just want you to draw closer to HIM and the basics in life. Maybe God’s will for you is right in front of you. You don’t have to look and search anymore, just take good care of what you already have.
In this way we honor God, and every single person who has been martyred because of their faith. Faith that is unshakeable is living out the life that God has already given you.
So when the enemy knocks on your door telling you to do more, just remember God is asking you to simply do what’s right in front of you.