Last night as I was preparing an online webinar, I tested the web cam function and boy did I regret that decision. All I could think about was how I wasn’t pretty enough to do the things God has called me to do.
Coincidentally, I had a moment of feeling not good enough just before that moment of not feeling pretty enough. I had just told my husband how insignificant I felt in this world. How in certain situations I felt like I just didn’t matter.
I think we all have those moments of insecurity, for me it is always surrounding times where I am stepping out in faith.
Lately the tests and the trials have been relentless. One thing about Job is that his trials were relentless, but he never lost faith in God even when he questioned his own significance in this world and his own existence.
The fact is there are going to be times in our lives where we will feel like we just don’t measure up in some way or another. Maybe we feel like we’re not pretty enough, strong enough, or smart enough.
Is God enough for us, or are we looking for satisfaction in someone, or something else?
When we feel like we’re not good enough then we are mostly certainly walking in our own agenda, and we are relying on our works in order to get us to the next step in the process.
So next time you feel like you’re not pretty enough, then I would say consider whose purpose you are walking in. What is determining your next steps? Is it your ability, or is it God’s grace?