I don’t want to turn into a pillar of salt like Lots’ wife. I guess sometimes I feel like I am, though. When life just doesn’t seem to be going according to plan, or when I flee from sin but maybe I look back thinking even that may have been a mistake, that’s when I know I am being a pillar of salt.
One commentary I read said that Lots’ wife turns into a pillar of salt because she turned back and secretly in her heart she longed for what she left behind. It had become her identity.
I wonder if she looked back because she didn’t know what she was looking forward to?
In that aspect I can totally relate. In a season where the future is so unclear I can often let that uncertainty distract me from just moving forward.
We need to realize what Lots’ wife didn’t, and that’s the fact that whatever God had planned for her future was a lot better than what God had just rescued her from.
God saved her and her family from total destruction. Anything was better than being stuck in that city while fire shot down from the sky.
Sometimes life doesn’t go as planned and it can feel like maybe we made a wrong turn, or maybe we should have been stronger or done better.
I love God’s mercy in the story where He rescues Lot and his wife from Sodom and Gomorrah. I love that He honors Abraham and even His own name!
The story of Lot’s wife is a tragic one especially when you think about all that she had missed out on in life because she was so attached to all that she was asked to leave behind.
It is difficult to not become attached to things in our life, whether it be routine, a status or a title, or even a dream that we feel God has placed in our heart. I am personally overwhelmed to think how the story could have been different for Lot’s wife if only she had kept her eyes looking ahead instead of looking back that one time.
Most people aren’t in that position that if they look back just once then they will turn into a pillar of salt. However, we are all at risk of slowly turning into a pillar of salt over time.
The same tragedy that happened to Lot’s wife is the same tragedy that happens to us when we are always longing for something other than God’s salvation, and that tragedy is all that we are missing out on in this life because we are too busy hanging onto something that makes us feel good, or that makes us feel important, etc.
Recently I had started thinking about the path my own life has taken and I will say a lot that has happened within the past 18 months would have never happened if my eyes were always looking back, or if my husband and I hadn’t taken several steps of faith without knowing the outcome or even what the future hold.
That’s the beautiful thing about leaps of faith, it kind of leaves you on a path where there really isn’t a whole lot of insight as to where it’s leading you. The only thing you do know is that you are walking in faith and God’s word says that is the only way to please Him.Eventually you stop looking for reassurance and you start enjoying the journey.
All expectations about what is ahead kind of falls away, and you are able to focus on God and just worshipping Him.
The journey to a deeper relationship with God was just one thing Lot’s wife missed out on.
But the more I walk along this journey the life where I need to make choices that make me trust in Him more are the ones that help me to draw closer to Him.
We can’t find those moments in the comfortable life, or a life of sin. If we want to draw closer to God then we are going to have to live a life of faith , and almost always that life will consist of not really knowing where you are going more than a few steps ahead.
This last year and half for our family has not been an easy one, and I am aware that the fight might not even be close to being over. However, in the midst of all the struggles I am clinging to faith because I don’t want to miss out on growing closer to God, or turn into a pillar of salt.
I am trusting that God will tell me what I need to hear.
He will give me the words I need to say.
I trust that He will always show me the next step.
I know that when I thought I knew where I was going, I was actually living a life of disobedience.
I thought when I knew what I wanted and I pursued that then that is what God wanted from me.
But it is not.
Even though life can feel bad most days, and there seems to be hostility around every corner, I know I am right where God wants me to be for whatever reason He needs me here.
I know that faith is more than what I can acquire in this life , or what I overcome, or even what I cling to. Faith is eternal.
We are all living for eternity and not just a fleeting moment, or a life that can easily be destroyed by fire falling from the sky in just one day!
That’s what Lot’s wife was holding onto, she was holding onto things that were temporary instead of clinging to what is eternal which is looking forward always having faith in God.
In order for us to not face the same fate as Lot’s wife we need to be sure to continue making the choices that draw us closer to God, we need to choose to live a life of faith.