I have been through many moments in my life where the pressure seemed to be unbearable. In those moments I have always been forced to move in a new direction, or dig deeper and build a more stable foundation.
I’m definitely in one of those moments now. In these moments I find my discomfort levels rising and all I want is for God to relieve the discomfort, and bring me back to the place where everything was OK and I could wake up everyday feeling secure. But that just isn’t the case. Try as I might, I pray, work, and strive. Strive to bring that sense of security that for some reason has disappeared.
I often think about how the people would flock to Jesus as he was healing them, preaching to them, and just loving them. But the moment He was arrested, the people didn’t flock to him anymore. In fact they abandoned Him on the cross. Then I think about how many times I’ve abandoned my faith because of what God WASN’T doing for me.
“I’d Rather be in This Wheelchair Knowing Him…” – Joni Eareckson Tada
This is definitely a time of pressure and change for me. It’s difficult, and confusing. But like the quote above, I would rather know Him in my suffering, temptation, and pain than to not know Him at all.