I can’t remember what grade I was in but we had to write about what we wanted to be when we grew up. I remember without hesitation I wrote that I wanted to be a businesswoman when I grew up. I remember having this vivid vision of myself in a nice pant suit and being the CEO of my company.
When the teacher was going around the room to see what we wrote, again I didn’t hesitate one bit when I told her I wanted to be a businesswoman. She asked me what type of business I wanted to own, I told her I didn’t know, I just wanted to be the BOSS.
I had totally forgotten about that moment in time until I was praying this morning. I went to bed early hoping to get enough sleep where I could wake up early and get my quiet time in while also being ready to attend an exercise class promptly after I dropped my two youngest ones off at school.
Well to my surprise my body decided 3:30am was the perfect time to wake up. I will say I accomplished all I had planned, and more.
But during my prayer/journaling time with God I just started praising Him. Then I immediately recalled this memory in my life. In that moment I was overwhelmed. I may have forgotten my dream to be a “businesswoman” but God remembered it clearly, and Holy Spirit reminded me of that long forgotten dream of mine.
It made me realize that God remembers things we don’t.
Sometimes when we are too busy dreaming up NEW dreams, God is still working on those dreams that have been long forgotten.
It truly puts us in this state of ungratefulness and entitlement. I have been having a hard time trusting in God’s timing because I have these new dreams and desires that I keep bringing to God in my prayer life. God is busily working to make all my requests fulfilled but in His timing so that they can be used to glorify Him in everything that we do.
I had no idea what kind of businesswoman I wanted to be. But God decided to use that dream for His glory. I own several businesses, but all of them are designed to glorify God in every small detail.
Realizing this today has helped me to trust in His timing even more. Everything I have today, in my life, I had prayed for. It didn’t come easy and nor did it rush into my life. A lot of this took time and a lot of brokenness.
I remember when we purchased our first home (it’s the house we are living in now) we were at a really bad place financially. We had so much debt to pay off and we needed money for a down payment. All of those financial resources were provided for us through a settlement I had received from a car accident I had endured the previous year.
I had dreamed of owning my own home, but the road to getting there was not easy.
I’m not saying something as devastating as a car accident will happen to you so that God can fulfill a dream in your life.
I wil say though, we all need to be prepared for just about anything. From failure, to disappointment, to broken relationships, to loss. Even the Israelites didn’t make it to the promised land without a war or two popping up here and there.
All of this helps me to know that God hears my prayers and He wants to give me good things, but unfortunately in this world they often cost us something to achieve.
If not a bump in the road like a car accident, then definitely a lot of hard work will be required.
Any fruit you see in someone’s life has cost them something.
Today just praise God for what you DO have then maybe you will be able to see that He is faithful. Then you will easily be able to trust God’s timing for whatever is on your heart today.