I can’t believe it has been over a month since I last blogged here. Even though I have bene writing, and I do have some blog posts that I need to get ready to go, taking the month of July off was definitely what I needed.
It was a month of ups and downs, and a lot of asking hard questions and even wrestling with God. I had moments of frustration, disappointment, insecurities, and I battled with my own pride.
The biggest revelation for me moving forward is to Pause & Trust.
I need to pause more, and trust God. Through this learning process I am finding that trusting God is truly the best plan that I can have for my life.
Lately the story of Peter getting out of the boat and walking on water has been sticking in my mind (Matthew 14:22-33)
I don’t know why I’ve always read that scripture in a way where I thought Jesus asked Peter to get out of the boat, but Jesus didn’t tell Peter to get out of the boat, Peter asked to get out of the boat. That is so profound to me.
The reason Peter came up with this idea was because he wanted Jesus to prove to him that it was in fact Jesus! The disciples were all afraid and they thought Jesus was a ghost. Peter still had to trust Jesus enough to get out of the boat, what if it was a “ghost” talking Peter to get out of the boat so that he could drown? Peter didn’t doubt until he looked around at his circumstances.I don’t think we doubt God’s presence in our life, I think we truly doubt His ability to handle the storms of our life.
This is when we need to pause & trust.
For me, I don’t pause and ask God enough. I am learning that sometimes God isn’t asking you to do anything, most of the time we are simply pursuing what we desire in our heart.
This past year, and mostly in the month of July, I am realizing that a lot of the things I have done with my life God never really asked me to do, but He was with me as I pursued these things and He used every situation to help me grow.
It was all apart of a process, and I feel God is in the process just as much as He is in the blessing, the promise, or the outcome.
With Peter, Jesus was already walking on the water, and Peter asked if he could join him. Jesus said, yes!
God is already doing something amazing in my life, this past month I have realized I just need to join Him.
Last year I had tunnel vision. In fact I would say for the most part my life before this year was all about tunnel vision. When my husband was diagnosed with a rare disease 4 years ago, I though the only way God could be glorified and I could be happy was if my husband was completely healed of his disease. But I am finding that sometimes our tunnel vision prevents us from seeing how God can work in different ways.In life our clarity comes when our vision isn’t so focused on just one thing, or even putting God into a box.
If Peter had tunnel vision he would’ve just simply stayed in that boat, but he was the only one that could clearly see, and even trusted Jesus enough, to ASK to get out of the boat and walk on water with Him.
Sometimes we think the only way to get to the other side of the lake is in a boat, but Jesus was showing us there are other ways to get across, impossible ways, and we just need to ask to join Him as He is showing us new and different ways to live.
For a long time I thought obedience was doing everything the right way. Often I would get discouraged if I felt like God wasn’t making things clear enough. But the clarity comes only when we are walking WITH Jesus , not looking at everything that is threatening our lives all around us.
This past year has been a year of growth for me. I often wondered if my decisions were the best decisions, but the more I just pause & trust God, the more I realize my vision of how I thought God was going to use me was too narrow.
It was based off an idea I had in my head, not off of what He wanted to do in my life.
If there is any confusion then we need to follow the word of God.
If there are any discrepancies within our life and the word of God, then we need to make some changes.
I feel that’s what I’ve been doing for the past year, and especially in July. It’s been a journey and my eyes are truly fixed on Eternity.
Pause & Trust Etsy Designs – Psalm 62:5
Below are some etsy designs I made based off of “Pause & Trust.” You can visit my Etsy shop by clicking here!