When it comes to working out I like isolation, hiding. Not to vulnerable has always been my way of life until last year God decided He wanted to stretch me into the one He had created.
So during the past year vulnerability and exposure was the norm. Getting out of my comfort zone and saying this is me, take it or leave it. But that's the thing, I didn't want people to leave me and the fear of being myself was that people wouldn't like ME so they may choose to walk away from me.
Recently in this journey of vulnerability I went to a new workout class, and it wasn't your typical class, but instead one where the room was 105 degrees and the workout was 90 minutes long. Oh the craziness.
The first day I wore a long sleeve shirt, it was really light, but as I walked out of the class everybody was like you are going to want to take that long sleeve shirt off. I knew my tank top was calling me in that class, but to me wearing just my tank top meant vulnerability.
Today I wore just the tank top to my workout class and as I looked in the mirror, I finally saw what God saw. I liked me better when I was vulnerable rather than when I wore that long sleeve shirt! All this time I thought I was hiding my imperfections, and then God showed me that I was covering up my beauty.
Even now as I write this I am feeling the need to hide, not just the bad about me, but also the GOOD things God is doing in my life. That's not OK.
So my heart for whoever is reading this right now is that you find a safe place where you can practice being vulnerable. Look at yourself, and SEE who God created you to be, not what the world sees or what the enemy tells you.
For me, today was one step towards the finish line. He is most definitely refining my heart. I know when I look at my children I SEE the amazing little people they ARE, not their moments of sin or what they look like. I am so proud of them because of the heart that swells inside of them. I love that they defend, protect, accept, and love others. I pray that they will never be afraid to be all these things and more…I pray that for you, too.
Our faith begins with what we know and believe about God. Our faith will carry us how far we are willing to let it take us. Faith is a choice and we need to begin by choosing to believe in Jesus and His power to move mountains, heal the sick, and save us from all our sins through His sacrifice on the cross.