I had great expectations for homeschooling. My heart was in the right place, but I honestly had no idea how overwhelming it would be. The hard part is I still have a heart for homeschooling. I want my children home with me more than they are influenced by others.
So this choice is not easy. The choice to move my kiddos to a blended charter school – one where they will be homeschooled 3 days per week and then in a classroom 2 days a week. My heart is a bit excited about it, yet I’m holding my expectations lightly.
We really don’t know what this new school year will hold. But when we started homeschooling, my husband and I, agreed we would take it one year at a time. I guess that’s what we will do now. One year at a time. We will see if the kiddos are thriving, and if their hearts are still being led to Christ.
Because that’s really all I want. I just want my children to have a heart for Christ. I know it’s a process and will take many teaching moments. Maybe now I will be able to commit more time to having more of those teaching moments now that the planning and the full burden of educating my children will be off my shoulders.
Again maybe that’s just an expectation. I doubt it will be any easier. A lot of people think it will. But not me. The more they are away from me the more intentional our moments together need to be. It stretches my faith more now to send them off to school 2 days a week than it does to have them home.
I think full time homeschooling ended up being a crutch, a place of comfort. I was confident only because they were with me. But faith will take us through this next year. I’m excited to see where it will go. I’m holding onto Jesus every step of the way, and letting go of my fear and expectations.